I wanted to take a moment to have you honor your journey. I think it’s so important to look back at the people we have been, both the versions of us we love and the versions of us we may be scared to be again.
Anyone who tells you healing is linear is lying to you, it is back and forth, up and down, sometimes it’s even a spiral. But always checking in with who we aim to be, and who we have been is so crucial in taking stock of our changes and growth.
When we are on the outside of our journey, afraid to look back at the things we may be ashamed of, or the ways we may have hurt people…well we are doing a great disservice to our journey because we aren’t IN the journey if we are on the outside looking in. Sure, you are technically in it as a physical being, but if you don’t FEEL into those experiences and see how you have changed or grown, you are just passively moving through the stages. When we passively take steps, it becomes much easier to slip and fall or not even change at all.
Imagine you are hiking, and you just passively move up the mountain. You didn’t bring supplies, you don’t pay attention to what’s going on or where you’ve been. You walk without determination, tripping and stumbling on the walk. Maybe you don’t even notice the dangers like poisonous snakes or bugs because you are just so afraid to pay attention. Then you are creating a sense of fear around the journey. In this fear you may look up and suddenly realize you’re lost because you didn’t pay attention to where you’d been. You engage in even more panic and suddenly you’re stumbling backwards or falling down the mountain, injuring yourself along the way, right back to where you’d started.
In a journey we always aim to move forward, true, but when we aren’t conscious or brave enough to look back at where we had been, well then we may become lost and fall back into our old patterns.
Take a journal out right now, close your eyes and imagine one thing you’d done in the past you aren’t proud of. Maybe don’t go too deep if you’re alone or aren’t quite ready yet (if you need support reach out to me on IG @lifebybody_ or by email lifebybody@gmail.com). But pick something you can safely traverse. Write down what it was, how it made you feel then, and how thinking about it makes you feel now. Notice your body, are there any sensations. Now, write about if you would find yourself doing the same thing, or feeling the same way. How do you think you’ve changed? What mindset shift did you have to get you to here.?Then pause and HONOR YOURSELF.
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